The first part of yesterday was rough. I had fallen into doubt, and the truth was being pushed out by lies. We were in Church, and parts of worship were great, but others were not. I intermittently fell in and out of confusion. God often gives me prophetic visions, but during worship, I kept seeing a bunch of visions that just didn't make any sense. These visions were apparently random and did not bring upliftment nor directly point to God. Worship didn't do what it usually does for me--I didn't feel any better afterwards than I did beforehand. I still felt oppressed, and now I was feeling a lot of confusion because I felt like God was not in my mind.
I should also mention that a few days ago, God began speaking to me about deliverance. I sometimes struggle with doubt, and for me, this doubt dilutes and distorts God's voice. This oppression began when God first started to train me to hear from Him accurately, and since then I've struggled through lesson after lesson on the importance of receiving God. I've learned that fear can make us falsely prophetic. Doubt, too, is also a dangerous thing. If unchecked, it can even make me believe that God has refused to bring me to a safe place, salvation. In referring to my own future deliverance, I heard God put it this way: "No more will you hear the voice of the enemy and believe it". That's a promise. His sheep hear His voice, and they follow it.
Anyways, He told me, promised me, that my own deliverance from oppression and doubt would come soon. This was two days prior to Sunday. After the worship section ended, I began pleading with God that He would deliver me, and do so today!
Praise God that if our minds condemn us, even if our hearts condemn us, He knows whose seed we are of (1 John 3:20). I was wrestling with God--or trying to--after worship ended, and He let me. Suddenly I came our of the spiritual attack and my mind felt clear and renewed. He began speaking to me, which I documented in my notebook as well as I could:
"Amidst a sea of doubt and confusion, set your eyes on Me. Set your affection on Me. Set your hope on Me."
He continued into more personal stuff, and the message was clear. I got into trouble because I was not fixated on God! Worship can be a very spiritual thing, and not every spiritual thing is good or worth thinking about. The more the Lord shows me how to worship in His fullness, the more spiritual worship feels and becomes. The deeper God takes me through worship,"in Spirit and in truth", the more boldly I need to focus on Him. It's not enough to just worship in Spirit. It's not entering into the fullness of God if we just worship in truth. The combination of both brings in God's touch.
What God spoke to me after worship was the truth, His truth, and it set me free. I was delivered from all my fears! God is so good. The Word he spoke to me was then confirmed as a lady went up to the front and shared a testimony. She said several things that so validated what God had spoken to me, and my heart was truly set at rest. Below are a few phrases that were so synchronistic to what I'd just received. Most are rephrased because all this was very in the moment.
-Things that aren't truthful can't be figured out.
The visions I received during worship weren't truth. As a result, I just couldn't figure them out! God is a God of order, and the things He gives are meant to help us be set free. Wow...this was a big learning lesson because it applied directly to all those seemingly spiritual, dark or random visions that were oppressing me.
-Jesus is the only answer, and we need to focus on Him
We need to focus on Him. Look at what happened to Peter when he stepped out onto the sea, in faith, but later lost his focus. Just like God told me right after worship! Any other thing besides Him does not give us an answer. Any other thing does not reply with the truth.
-No truth only "leads to confusion"
The wording this lady used was so synchronistic with how God initially answered me. Praise Jesus! Confused is exactly how I felt when I was spiritually attacked. I had many spiritual things blocking out the truth, and I became pretty confused in trying to make sense of them.
The same Holy Spirit that gave me deliverance after worship prompted this lady to share testimony later in the service, and this same Spirit gave her and I similar human words and phrases to conceptualize spiritual truths. The truth set me free, and by His grace God gave me confirmations so that I could continue in the faith.
How does God deliver us? He gives us the Truth. He gives us the revelation. He gives us free gifts, and He accompanies these good things with faith to expand on them. He allows us to go through oppressions so that we can call on Him. We call on Him, and He answers us! He answers us with deliverance. Glory to God! He gives us the truth and saves us from the enemy. He gives us truth and saves us from all our fears.
"I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4
I should also mention that a few days ago, God began speaking to me about deliverance. I sometimes struggle with doubt, and for me, this doubt dilutes and distorts God's voice. This oppression began when God first started to train me to hear from Him accurately, and since then I've struggled through lesson after lesson on the importance of receiving God. I've learned that fear can make us falsely prophetic. Doubt, too, is also a dangerous thing. If unchecked, it can even make me believe that God has refused to bring me to a safe place, salvation. In referring to my own future deliverance, I heard God put it this way: "No more will you hear the voice of the enemy and believe it". That's a promise. His sheep hear His voice, and they follow it.
Anyways, He told me, promised me, that my own deliverance from oppression and doubt would come soon. This was two days prior to Sunday. After the worship section ended, I began pleading with God that He would deliver me, and do so today!
Praise God that if our minds condemn us, even if our hearts condemn us, He knows whose seed we are of (1 John 3:20). I was wrestling with God--or trying to--after worship ended, and He let me. Suddenly I came our of the spiritual attack and my mind felt clear and renewed. He began speaking to me, which I documented in my notebook as well as I could:
"Amidst a sea of doubt and confusion, set your eyes on Me. Set your affection on Me. Set your hope on Me."
He continued into more personal stuff, and the message was clear. I got into trouble because I was not fixated on God! Worship can be a very spiritual thing, and not every spiritual thing is good or worth thinking about. The more the Lord shows me how to worship in His fullness, the more spiritual worship feels and becomes. The deeper God takes me through worship,"in Spirit and in truth", the more boldly I need to focus on Him. It's not enough to just worship in Spirit. It's not entering into the fullness of God if we just worship in truth. The combination of both brings in God's touch.
What God spoke to me after worship was the truth, His truth, and it set me free. I was delivered from all my fears! God is so good. The Word he spoke to me was then confirmed as a lady went up to the front and shared a testimony. She said several things that so validated what God had spoken to me, and my heart was truly set at rest. Below are a few phrases that were so synchronistic to what I'd just received. Most are rephrased because all this was very in the moment.
-Things that aren't truthful can't be figured out.
The visions I received during worship weren't truth. As a result, I just couldn't figure them out! God is a God of order, and the things He gives are meant to help us be set free. Wow...this was a big learning lesson because it applied directly to all those seemingly spiritual, dark or random visions that were oppressing me.
-Jesus is the only answer, and we need to focus on Him
We need to focus on Him. Look at what happened to Peter when he stepped out onto the sea, in faith, but later lost his focus. Just like God told me right after worship! Any other thing besides Him does not give us an answer. Any other thing does not reply with the truth.
-No truth only "leads to confusion"
The wording this lady used was so synchronistic with how God initially answered me. Praise Jesus! Confused is exactly how I felt when I was spiritually attacked. I had many spiritual things blocking out the truth, and I became pretty confused in trying to make sense of them.
The same Holy Spirit that gave me deliverance after worship prompted this lady to share testimony later in the service, and this same Spirit gave her and I similar human words and phrases to conceptualize spiritual truths. The truth set me free, and by His grace God gave me confirmations so that I could continue in the faith.
How does God deliver us? He gives us the Truth. He gives us the revelation. He gives us free gifts, and He accompanies these good things with faith to expand on them. He allows us to go through oppressions so that we can call on Him. We call on Him, and He answers us! He answers us with deliverance. Glory to God! He gives us the truth and saves us from the enemy. He gives us truth and saves us from all our fears.
"I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4
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