On Beat & Awake

Three days ago, on Tuesday morning, I woke up and began to just say "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus" throughout the morning. I began doing it again in the early afternoon, and by the late afternoon, I was saying it to make it through some regular chaos.

It feels like this is my "waking up" cry. You see, I have been through some very spiritually dry patches since August. When I "press in" to God, it hasn't been the same as in past times. It hasn't been as passionate. I have been sick, which has made me very uncomfortable, and I have been frustrated with God about it. Three weeks ago, I had to make it a personal goal to not say a word against the Lord. He has been using the book of Job to speak to me a lot through it all. I have also been meeting a lot of other "Jobs."

Also on Tuesday morning, I began to feel better physically. Last week, I noticed Thomas had been writing a series of blogs on Revival. He said that God had been telling him that He was bringing revival. When I hear that word, I think of large groups of people being spiritually refreshed, coming back to God. But I had a thought, and I asked God, "Are you going to give me revival too? I need this so bad; I want this so bad! I opened the Bible randomly and the first thing my eyes saw was Hosea 6:2, which says, "After two days He will revive us, on the third day He will restore us, that we may live in His presence." I decided to believe that He was going to bring revival to even me, and soon!

Today is Friday, and ever since Tuesday, I have been feeling oppression lift off of me. I feel freer, lighter. I say, "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus" all the time, and it brings me peace. I am able to come to Him easier, unashamed. I have also only used two tissues today, and not too long ago, I used a whole box in a day. Spiritually, I testify that He really is reviving me, and physically, I clearly witness that He is restoring my body!

Yesterday, my brother Daniel gave me an interesting gadget with loud speakers that plays by bluetooth what is playing on my iPhone. It is called a JBL ONBEAT AWAKE, which I thought was appropriate :-)

I'm continuing to pray for this revival and restoral to keep happening in me, as I am not fully restored yet and I know that spiritually I could still be more alive. I have had to keep constant my begging to be revived and restored. I believe He wants to revive us all!! But we have to want it too. We have to show Him that we want it. If He just gave it to us, we may take it for granted and fall away easily again without recognizing the shifts in our spiritual state. It's easy to get lackadaisical that way, but it's strengthening to constantly be aware of where we are; it helps us to keep pressing in for more Revival!


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"I give myself away... All I want is You."

I love this song-
 (thanks to Thomas for finding it!)