About a week ago, I had some bad dreams. In these dreams, I discovered I had cancer in my brain. The tumor was the left side of my forehead. In the dream, I was confused about why God allowed me to get cancer. I felt let down and didn't understand why this has happened to me. This was particularly sad for me because I've really trusted God for my health in the past.
I woke up from the dream a few times, with a throbbing headache on the top left corner of my forehead. Right where this imagined cancer had been...after waking up a few times, I finally realized what was happening. Everything began the night before, when there was a lot of talk about people who had cancer, holistic cures for cancer, etc. These ideas manifested in my cancer dream, and a tangible headache!
In thinking so much about cancer, I opened myself up to a false manifestation of it. I find that physical symptoms follow spiritual battle. The tangible, physical patterns we observe are usually only effects of an unseen spiritual battle. In this case, the ideas I'd let in prior developed into tangible pain.
So I began to pray. Often just thinking, "Jesus", is enough to have Him heal me. I did this twice, and the pain eased, then came back, twice. So, I said the same thing out loud. This seems to be more effective. The Lord can discern our thoughts, but adversarial forces cannot. So I believe it benefits us to have the enemy hear us call upon the Lord.
I fell asleep again, free from pain. Praise God! However, bad dreams resumed and when I woke up for good, the headache was back. I got anxious and began praying pretty blindly. The Lord halted me, and told me to what to say. He told me to command a "spirit of doubt" to leave. I did so verbally, and the pain left for good. I instantly felt a force lift off me. I was opened up to God's love! Truly, the burden Jesus gives us is light.
In hindsight, doubt is a very dangerous thing. I went wrong in fearing the power and prevalence of cancer today. By thinking of things like this, my faith was hurt and I began to doubt the unconditional promises of God. His WORD is greater than cancer. His name is the name above all names, and when I began to doubt this I got into trouble. Praise God that the blood of His Son keeps us free from oppression! Sometimes, though, we need to pray against the enemy as God directs us. We also need to stay transformed, with renewed minds. Seeds of doubt and fear can be sown even through ordinary conversations. This is why God wants us to guard our speech and stay sanctified. Let's be pure, just as He is pure!
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